dare i say it, i had a word plan going. and then it got shortcircuited, and now i cannot remember. this is super confusing and then the call from deep outside. yeah mr k700i rang. like catching glimpses of it made it sound.
and then it's 2, at the same time. i shouldnt complain, but im too tired. i hate it that there is some things that he will never understand. first meetings but on the phone, next time should be different.
someone hold out a pole so i can step out of this quicksand sucking at my feet.
i am very much looking forward to tomorow and friday. please dont let anything ruin it. i want to be able to anticipate something and have it presented to me in whole. not in parts, especially when the parts are disappointing as hell. my IN tray is filled with pending disappointments, hah. my OUT tray is full, just throw it out.
i loved the me yesterday, if only for one short fleeting moment.
and then the unglamorous pessimist shot out of nowhere and
reminded me of things you cant even imagine me thinking.
i shall just stop saying stuff now.
it wont make much sense.