i so badly want to spill out and say what im terribly missing right now. how pathetic this sounds. im restraining alright, and im not going to dwell in this anymore. 'she's holding up fine' is not a sentence you want to be saying to me anytime soon. funny. i dont even know the cause.
at first, i thought it was the silent late nights. then i thought it was the lack of good news, and not meeting up with the gerlfrens. so it finally hit me just now why this feeling of absence. the happiness of a friend made me realise what im missing.
fuck it. just throw it out the window; this wont do good to me.
today told me to try something new, like taking a parachuting course, or going to an art gallery to take up painting or rock-climbing or asking for someone's number for a change.
what are the chances of that actually happening. isnt that quite a joke. im still anticipating today, because it has been a while. and plans of going away are quietly forming.
what's been proven is that the thought of shoes, (not food) is keeping my chin up.
shopping baby, and fashionistas meet tomoro, yey.