Monday, October 31, 2005

remains untitled.

look, im not sure if what you're saying is to me.
heck, im gonna do this anyway.

the look on her face when i saw her wasnt one of kindness. it wasnt one of delightful surprise either. it was just her typical look, and no, i wasnt gonna sit with the two of them and ruin whatever evening they had planned. plus i had things to do at work too.

i did however sms her after i was done with work. i asked her if she was still outside so i can join her, but they left already. well okay then, i was looking forward to talking to her but nevermind.

if i didnt care i wouldnt have said hi in the 1st place. dont assume. so i said i cannot be bothered because i asked and you two couldnt be bothered to even tell me what you feel. what is the point if our feelings are not voiced out, if we cant even work it out together.

so yes, reconciliation is a definite must with me because i want to, that i know. but when and how and where is the question. and how long this will last.

i grew up with the two of you for more than 4 years now, did you really expect me to push you out of my mind and just continue living like normal? im not like that okay. and i reallymissyoutwo alot. especially with every windowshopping/shopping thing. we'll talk when we're ready. i hope.

I. O. U. upcoming weeks.

+ t-shirt design for camp committee . + get better. + 2 camp meetings . + newsletter meeting. + Tao Nan Carnival . + le open house . + ...