here's the weird thing:
people i dont think i can gel (hur hur) with initally, feels so familiar now, that there's nothing strange about it anymore (as in strange like strangers). it's a good feeling, a warm growing feeling, and i fear that im even more attached to this thing called MCM (mass comm).
aiyak aiyak.
standing in the middle of a walkway beside an orange block just babbling our mouths away is funny, seeing how i dont think i can do that with you 2 years ago. ive grown more relaxed and more adapted to people. look ma, ive grooooowwwwwn. im surprised that someone's surprised at me being noisy coz according to her, i seem like a quiet person. sape nak ketawa? but really, i admit, im a quiet student, shut up.
did my 1st standupper today. (standuppers are when reporters stand in front of somewhere and talk with the mic, something like that lah, im being quite a lazy person to describe lah.) eurgh, it was horrible, i think i sound like an underaged kid. eh, macam mane tu?
alah, my brain's not exactly working. ive been multitasking like nobody's business; trying to write my trib story, watching Tru Calling for my tv review, trying to do med law and thinking of ways to change my 1st draft of script. on top of that, im scared i cant wake up on time tomoro, seeing how it's 3 am n i still wide awake.
it's just my opinion. not much of a difference it can do. sometimes the world needs a little sympathy and kindness and i have plenty of that to give, so why not give it? nothing can be uglier than unkindness, hatred and selfishness. and why would God make ugly creatures rite?
how do you know you're not one, a qsn ive asked myself all the time. obviously the answer's not with me lah. having faith in people, strangers even, is one weakness i have failed to beat and dont seem to want to overcome. it gives me alot to live for, knowing that someone is worth living for/with.
not sure anyone would get what i mean, but hey, if you're still reading this, at least im doing something right, right?
i have to stop dreaming these dreams im dreaming. maybe that's why im still awake.