i finally bought it. the cdshopdude made me laugh when he said 'oh wow, you're so mild now. what happened.' it's as if he's known me for years.
right.
come to think of it now, ive been waiting for this for so fucking long, it's hard for me to part with either. you won't know the many trials i went through; the full sent items in my email everyday; silent handphones; waking up early just to go to some inane unheard of place. it's weird how everything turned out. i am super thankful.
can i have both? riight.