unfair is when you look your fucking best but feel absolutely mindblowing shitty. this is when you realise taking the acting class was totally worth it. definitions come to light. words like tai-tai, matching and technical glitch.
i felt good today, when i stepped out of the house. bounded to aunts place. sat chat ate drank tea like a bunch of hard-assed tai-tais. smiled, laughed, glowed. yes, she literally said that i glowed (at this point she begins to suspect me of being attached)(like that's ever gonna happen soon, and i dun need a boy/man/boyfriend to glow dammit!).
in this picture perfect day with me in a matching outfit (how often is that), a small technical glitch happened. it was like i answered a call that transported me back to 2005 (think back to the future feat. cute michael j. fox). i think the glow disappeared just then.
so there. this is proof that when there is a hole in an almost perfectly shaped fresh cookie, it will crumble. ooohhh, fuck bad analogies.
on a totally (idunnoifishouldsay) serious note; my reservations about this havent been made clear, certainly. im hiding all my ego under this one thing, and i wont let it fall. i dont need one more thing to fail. i have big big thoughts. so we'll just have to see.
you know, at the end of the day it is still unfair.