Tuesday, February 14, 2006

turning me into dust.

the prospect of going out and bumping into everyone, and every two people holding hands or doing something as chummy is at a high today. that, and the sudden thought of shying away from everything public. as if stepping out isn't public enough. while all these lovey-dovey shit is not entirely annoying, it is a nuisance.

oh what do you expect from a single person right, but critics of a day devoted to love. in this tiring state of mind, what is it that everyone seems deeply hopeful for. put on a disguise, and step outside to the laughing eyes, and taunting smiles. because i dont have a rose nor a promise from a loved one dont mean im pathetic. what is it about today that makes us sit and think about love, just because someone made a note that today has to be romantically linked.

dont give me explanations, i just want to get through this month. no, it's not that march has things i can look forward to. it's just that this month is ever-changing, every fucking day.

at the end of every phone call there must be laughter. like it's a rule. it's the closing of another conversation that started with tears, urgency and exclamation marks. revelations. i am beginning to be friends with that word. apparently we can go through anything now. yes, and that much relevation should be celebrated because the 3 of us have come a long way.

today's such a hide-dont-seek day.

I. O. U. upcoming weeks.

+ t-shirt design for camp committee . + get better. + 2 camp meetings . + newsletter meeting. + Tao Nan Carnival . + le open house . + ...