there are times when i know no matter what we do, you wont be entirely happy. because of reasons we both know, and feel. sometimes there's this little thing in me that gets angry because of it. and yet, it is inevitable and i have no power over it.
i wanted everybody to be there but i couldnt bring myself to it.
plain ol' selfishness, i guess.
pretence is unfortunately not for everyone. me in particular. i know the bday went great, but i know that something is missing in you too, and im sorry i cannot do anything about that. but be there for you. 21, we still have a long way to go.
here's to many more happy memories ahead. <3 u.