yesterday was almost surreal. and meeting them helped, dont ask why. they did.
yesterday i had a whole set of thoughts on what i should and shouldnt do. but along the way, some things happen and im suddenly quite unsure. but today, today, i made up my mind. i shall choose to still be here. it hurts a lot, still but this is something i have to get used to.
he is after all my friend, and i want him to be happy with everything and stuff.
im not going to regret this right? no, im never gonna do something i know im going to regret.
so today brings something new, though spoilt.
it calms me how we can still talk and laugh and joke like it's normal.
it calms me and annoys me the same.
you know, i think this is me growing up.
cry or be happy? no idea.