it's not all fun and games, and i hate the combination of tonight.
and when everybody's out to play, the gloomy days will start to stay.
say 'ntahlah cheetah', and in he swoops to sorta sweep me off my feet, and make sure i bounce back up because he is nice like that. man, isnt this just sad. the one that's there never fails. never will let me falter.
(and isnt it annoying when the sound of the keyboards just snaps you back to reality)
how weird everything formed out to be. the many new hellogoodbye friends, flyoverbuddies having pancakes in the weeeeee morning, strolling past clarkequay with crazy monkeys, chilling out to loud music with view of gorgeous nightsky, then sneaking into house when the sun rises.
dinnerwithboos proved alot to take and the realisation of time wasted apart and love never faltering. the ever endearing bestfriend who never letsmedown. never and always understanding, it's similar.
missing what isnt even mine never crossed my mind. until now like i know it will.
but fuckit and gone you will be. im ready to really say goodbye. (i dont need you.)
sepet just reminds me of the thrill of getting to know one another, of starting anew. and it's exhilirating, being in the night. forget everything, forget the dark. somehow the night just reminds me of what i can be. you will never know it.
relief of pain at my discretion. take pills twice a day, he said. apparently the heart, back and chest muscles' been strained: the root of my chest pains. take it easy take it easy, and back to square one would mean i will lose more weight, yey.
anything's possible. 2005 told me so.
then again, 2005's been a pain.
it wont be long until everything settles.
i hope by then im not completely destroyed. get out.