an empty weekly affair

two times in two weeks, and it's taking a toll on me. dont ask, i may never say a thing. sometimes i feel it's best to keep the trap shut, and i have no idea why everything has to be so quiet and shushed. i want to disappear for a while. evaporate me.

i love my friends, but i dont want to be with them right now.
i dont mean that, and yet i want that. how is it possible?

time please be on my side.

two movies; (you'll never know the meaning of love till you watch them) iamsam and awalktoremember. watch and weep.

it's not a matter of doing it because you have to. it's doing it because you can and you want to. most importantly you can, before you cannot. and it's important because the balance is lost and then that's one way it can be redeemed. for you're doing it because you want to. this peace is very much needed.