conversations held at different times but talking about the same things make me feel somewhat better. had a talk about marriages and about stepping up to the next level. there are alot of things i keep private from anyone else but him. hoping and wanting is different from planning as zreen n me pointed out to each other. i already think that im in a deeper level with him than anyone ive went with and that is an achievement for me. three of us are different n i dont expect us to have the same kind of relationships, hopes, aspirations or thoughts. im already commiting more than you know. i'll just leave it at that.
scriptwriting lecture has helped us in more ways than we know. in that lecture, we can de-stress. think about it; where else can we talk, share problems, eat, drink, put our legs up on chairs and sleep? it's our little siesta time, much similar to them kids at the childcare and their naptime, haha.
i realise sometimes that im a girl version of the guys my friends are dating/going out with. no, im not half guy, im just like that. hearing zreen talking about shah reminds me of myself. that happens alot with banu too. it's weird but hell, at least you can understand your other halves abit more and i can understand mine thru you. ive always known you were part-girl, djools.
and yes, zreen, i do say iloveyou to him, just not as often as most girls. yes reh, im still shy about these kind of things, i cant help it. reflex action.
im thankful that i have a nice very fun and loving boyfriend. though he's disgusting, irritating and illogical. oh well, world's not perfect right? heh.