okay, overdose on the entries today (or rather, this morning/noon). there was something tap tap tapping on my brain and i recall vaguely dreaming about it this morning.
skip this entry if you're tired of reading because it touches on nothing in particular.
last week was full of hospital visits. from tan tock seng to NUH. the blood, the injections, the smell dont bother me at all. what bothered me and reminded me so much of death was 'beeps'. the beeping sound of the life support system or whatevertheycallit. it bugged me, and it was coming from the man opposite my granduncle's bed. the man was lying down and he couldnt move. the nurse had to feed him. his heart has been reduced to just beeps. it's freaky; death comes when the beepings stop.
a lot of things are happening in the world today, right when we dont have tv journ anymore (heh). one of the more touching stories would be about a woman whose feeding tube has been ordered by court to be taken out. she's in a vegetative state and cannot control anything. she can only eat thru her feeding tube. the battle between her parents and her husband has been going on for 7 years. only last two weeks, was the verdict out. it's quite a painful process and to think that she, the one who's in that state can do nothing to protest. doctors said she'll take at least a week (or two) to die.
is there no way to kill her without making her feel pain? i say kill, cos in a sense, you're killing her by depriving her of food.
im getting extra emotional these past couple of days. i had tears in my eyes while i was reading reader's digest. sheesh.
do you dream i would be there, to rescue you from the moon, the stars, these complications?