for once, for once in four years, you wont see an entry about my whatever past. for once i can proudly say 'i moved on'. and boy, does it feel great. except for this stoopid pit feeling in stomach, a growing guilt feeling making itself comfortable and the perpetual sadnes making a cameo appearance.
we had an msn convo just now, though only for a short while. but the fact that we can talk like old friends, though we are in actuality still old friends, is great. makes me feel free-er. and no, there are no more feelings. it's a big step towards... towards the new life im leading now.
though my new life seems so lifeless now, but it'll manage. no more thinking about the past. ahh, it's refreshing.
i know exactly why im feeling guilty but we've decided and a decision is a decision. no means no. you get the drift. be prepared to just get an sms, or if im free, a call. though i think you'd be out partying seeing how you're now a year older.
the sadness comes and will go but right now it stays, so just shut up because it's something i have to put up with. not you. you just aggravate it. i'll manage, i know. sometimes i wonder why you were willing to do more things for me when we're not together and how things are pretty much different now. it's okay though, i'll adapt sooner or later.
shutting up seems to do much more.