Sunday, July 17, 2005

same same but different.

i said all that. i mean all that but then there's the guilt. we hung up on a negative tone.
i hate being restrictive, i hate telling him what to do, i hate separation. i pretty much have to adapt and drop from hating to disliking. then disliking to moderately being fine with it.

he said he dont love me not right now. i can see why.
he's right when he said im very leceh.
and he's on-the-dot when he said that this is the beginning of me being restrictive and possessive.
i am messed up and i am scared he is losing interest in me. im meddlesome.

I. O. U. upcoming weeks.

+ t-shirt design for camp committee . + get better. + 2 camp meetings . + newsletter meeting. + Tao Nan Carnival . + le open house . + ...