[emo trip: relaxed, aching body. red dress is calling out my name.]

while on the many buses i took, i kept thinking about my 20 years or life. when did it get so difficult, or has it always been this difficult; im not sure which came first.

i am having serious doubts after having meaningful discussions with my partners while working. too small for singapore's market, too little people interested, too many people with talents. my biggest fear is not having any talent. then what am i to do if i realise that's true.

all these insecurities are complicating my life lah. wave your magic wand and make it all disappear, yes?

work is fine, if you're wondering. besides the usual pressure of starting out on a new job, one thing that worries me is the food stalls beside the store. they dont serve nice food! i cant be eating off 7-eleven forever, although honestly, i really dont mind. they sell cute little ben&jerry's and haagen dazz's pints there. cant wait to try that one out.

other than that, i look like a minah malaysia with the double t-shirt thing going. i only have to wear a cap on top of my tudung and the transformation's complete. oh, and i finally watched 'the wedding singer'. such a sweet story, especially the serenading part. the store has almost all stephen king's remake wooo peee.

im quite worried about him. i mean, i should be right? it's really just normal to worry. slowly getting used to it, heh.

bowling anyone? ok, let's tango.

watching the world from inside the store is like watching a very busy fishtank. i wished i had a camera then. am fascinated by this greenish-turqouise old schoolbus. it was gorgeous, and it went well with the pink bus beside it. everything is so full of colour in river valley. i didnt think i would say that.

expectations are quite high for me, i hope i can live up to it.

i keep thinking about pink skies, blue flowers and mangosteens.
bright. electric. purple. fruits.

okay, red dress is confirmed. im good to go.