i cant deny it no longer.
there's just something missing.
if you know anyone who wants to start an organization or something, please tell me. im interested in joining something. i absolutely cannot stay home and rot or just go out everyday. im afraid i might lose interest in a lot of things. intellectual activity for one. i predict that if i do stay at home or go out everyday, it might result in an inactive brain.
i need a rush. i want a rush, dammit.
i hate waking up in the morning with the continuation of yesterday's neverending thoughts. my neck hurts from sleeping in a sitting position. i'm quirky like that; i sleep sitting up when i have my period.
fees for design courses are expensive. it surprises me how i want it so badly yet i dont want it at all. heh, you dont call me indecisive for nothing. it's assurance that i want and assurance is not here.
i need Your help because i really am not sure.